The negatives: I'm 27, I live with my parents, I've got a shit job I find it difficult to take any interest in, I'm single but all my friends are in relationships, I smoke too much, I drink too much, and I've reached that uncomfortable time when all the chips I've been scoffing for the last twenty years are finally catching up with me.
And the positives? I'm only 27, my parents are great, I have got a bit of cash in the bank, I have a very nice occasional lover, I love 43 and coke and I love marlboro lights (not sure how this is a positive but hey-ho), I'm not stupid, I do have pretty decent qualifications, and I'm not exactly fat, just a bit softer than I was.
Perhaps I should stop being so critical of myself, but there are some changes I want to make, and this is the time to do it. No ties, no committments, no financial restraints, no dependants. If I don't do it now, I never will. And the hope is that keeping this blog will spur me on, if only so that I have something a little bit interesting to write about instead of drivelling on about how rubbish my life is.
So, the changes. The aims for the next twelve months. Or at least the aims to work towards.
1. Quit my job. Not just to namby-pamby around and find another rubbish job to replace the current one. I'm talking full-on career change. I always wanted to write, so this is the aim; enrol in journalism MA or suchlike, hopefully to start in September 2008, and at least point myself in the right direction.
2. Stop smoking. Not much to say about this one really; its bad and its got to go. But other smokers will know, sometimes a marlboro light just hits the mark and its like.....ahhhhhhh!
3. I want to run a marathon. I'm not going to overface myself and book myself in for the New York marathon tomorrow, but its something I've always wanted to achieve so I want to start towards that. The aim is; be able to run a mile without passing out by June. See no. 2 for why this is a big deal for me.
4. Move out of my parent house. Hopefully to be achieved by no. 1. I love my parents but I'm dangerously close to being an official loser.
So thats for starters. I'll probably think of others as time goes on, but leaving my job and home and abandoning one of my favourite passtimes in favour of jogging seems like more than enough for the moment. Wish me luck. Or talk me out of it, it probably wouldn't be difficult.